There is too much I want to say to you; too much I would like you to know. You’re my most favored soul. You are too much, too special; I am the lesser kind. I used to hope to spend a day with you, it would not be enough, but.. even just a day. In that time, it would be a perfect timing.

I used to.

They say ‘time heals all wounds.’ I did let time slipped away. I stopped and ignored my hopes grasping to that theory that someday, everything will just fall perfectly into place.

But times have passed and my hope seems to fall out, seems to fade out. I think it’s the new normal. We should not follow the norms, other people’s theories, because I guess.. everything gets blurry when ignored for too long. People move the fuck on and leave the pieces behind. We don’t wait anymore. We don’t have to wait anymore.

There is no perfect timing.



Today’s Mantra / 03

“The purpose of a good university is to give you a foundation to fail, not a foundation to get an A. If you graduate college with straight A’s, you have to do some serious soul-searching as to why you chose to spend time doing that.”

“I thought we’d go for a walk,” Sophie said.

Agatha leaned against the door. “I’m still trying to figure out why you’re friends with me.”

“Because you’re sweet and funny,” said Sophie.

“My mother says I’m bitter and grumpy,” said Agatha. “So one of you is lying.”

– The School for Good and Evil, Chainani


P. S. Thanks to Bea who have lend me this awesome book. I’m actually more of a classic and books-that-don’t involve-power-but-real-life-scenario kind of reader. This is the first fantasy novel I’ve buried my nose. This day realization is that, you should always read something new. Be out of your comfort zone and wander in the world of literature. As a reader, you should not get to choose what to read because sometimes, in unexpected circumstances, there you’ll find the true magic and lasting happiness and contentment.

Today’s Mantra / 02

In my field, I see people that come into it with big, idealist visions of becoming the leader that will create a better world. They enjoy the goal but not the process. But the reality of it is, the true work of improving things is in the little achievements of the day, and that’s what you need to enjoy.

I was working for this organization that helped villages in Mexico and their concerns was how to get the pencils sent to kids in those little country schools. It was not about big, revolutionary ideas. It was about pencils. I see the people that do the real work and what’s really sad is that the people that are the most giving, hardworking and capable of making this world better, usually don’t have the ego and ambition to be a leader.

They don’t see any interest in superficial rewards. They don’t care if their name ever appear in the press. They actually enjoy the process of helping others. They are in the moment.

– Celine, Before Sunset (2004)

Today’s Mantra / 01

Fall in love when you’re confident in yourself, when you’re feeling complete on your own, when you know what you want.

A love that is born in loneliness is not a love that is destined for growth – the roots are weak and longevity is hopeless.

You can’t expect to be whole again if you’re always having different people patch back together the empty holes inside your heart.

You need to be alone in order to know what you want and what you deserve. Don’t cheat yourself out of that.

Words by: Becca Martin